10 Day "You" Challenge: Day 10

As I was doing a blog hop, I came across this 10 Day You Challenge at Spilled Milkshake; and really enjoyed getting to know her.  She came across this post by Dayna of Great Beauty Buys who got the idea from Mom-A-Logues and Laura at Cocoons 2 Butterflies, so it seems it is spreading. While I don't know all these ladies (I should say "yet" as I plan to go back and read their 10 day challenges). 

I thought this was an awesome way to get to know each other better! So I'm going to do it - starting with 10 and working my way back.  I might not post every day but I'll add it to the topics so you can find them if you want.  If you decide to participate, leave a comment with your blog so I can get to know you too!

1. I love my heels but my feet really hurt when I wear them - I suffer for "beauty".
2. I'm a pharmacist by training but I don't want to work as one because the fear of making a mistake (a med error) that could hurt or kill someone freaks me out!
3. I feel like I'm a big imposter and one day, someone will look "behind the curtain" and see that I'm not "as good", "as smart", or "enough of" anything people think I am - and then everything will fall apart.
4. I've never felt pretty.
5. My dad died when I was 14, and I miss him - I hope he's proud of me.
6. I've had some amazing ideas in the past (such as Preggo Products - a line of inexpensive humorous novelty gifts for pregnant women) but I wasn't able to bring them to market and later saw "less than" versions done by others.  I regret letting go, and I'm so afraid the same thing could happen with If The Shoe Doesn't Fit if I can't make it successful.
7. I was hit by a truck walking across the street with my dog in 1989 and essentially had to learn to walk and talk again.
8. I've had 6 dogs (3 beautiful golden retrievers now) and love them all.  My first dog, Suddy, a golden, was special; she was with me when I had my accident and all during my recovery.  She was more human than dog.  I lost her in 2000 and I still miss her every day.
9. I'm envious of my friends who are such awesome dancers - I love ballroom dancing and work soooo hard at it - but I dance from my head and wish I knew how to dance from my heart like they do.  I really want to.
10. I care what people think; I want them to like me.  I'm working on getting to a place where I can let that go - but I've spent my life as a people pleaser and it's a hard thing to break.  

Ok - so brutally honest and a little more serious than I planned - but hey - you'll get to know me.  I'll keep a lot of the others lighter.  I think the topics lend themselves to different material.  But 10 real secrets - well - if it was the fluff stuff everyone knew, it wouldn't be  a secret now would it...


~Ellen